Almost Anorexic

This past month has been pretty crazy and stressful for me. All the negative emotions are finally taking their toll on my health. I put on my fairly new pair of jeans this morning and they were ill-fitting and baggy. I know jeans tend to stretch over time but this is too much stretching in too short a time. I'm also one hole tighter on my belts. This is pretty weird since there have been no drastic changes in my diet. Some days I get a little distracted and forget to eat until dinner time, but mostly I eat a healthy amount of food per day.

I've been getting funny comments from friends and family too. My mom told me the other day when she saw me walking around the house in a sports bra and workout shorts, "You look like you might be anorexic! If you lose any more weight, people will think you're sick. Stop exercising or start eating more." And the other day, my friend looked at me and said, "Wow, dude. Ang payat mo na. Anong nangyari sa yo?" Other people have made similar comments, even those that I see on a regular basis. I also get the standard "Congratulations!" at all the weight I've lost but it doesn't feel like an accomplishment. My dancing is suffering because I run out of energy so fast. It's hard for me to stay awake late at night and wake up early in the morning. All I want to do is sleep nowadays.

Even with all my cheat days where I stuff myself with pizza, chips, ice cream or loads of chocolate, I'm still losing weight. I've been trying to up my carb intake (not too much though coz I am kind of liking the new look) these past few days. We'll see how that works. The stress is just really catching up to me. I'd rather not lose weight and be calm and happy than lose weight from stress and feeling bad.

Hopefully things will be better soon. I know all things get better over time. I just wish time would speed it up a little bit. Hahaha.

Ciao for now!